A TOUCH of Moonlight

                                   by: Franklin "Frankie" Toledo

I was watching the late night show of my favorite tv station. There I was lying on the couch and seems to be enjoying the said tv program. It was hot that night. I move unto the floor and headed towards the nearby Philippine made BED Sheet "BANIG." Little by little my eyes started to collapse and then I realized I was falling fast asleep. It was pass 3 in the morning.. I wake up "panting" like as If i couldn't hold unto my breath.I saw that the TV was still on with no show on its screen. I got up and turned off the television. Still my breath got worst every little minute. My roomates were at their hometowns that time and I got no one to accompany me with my illness. I was coughing really hard, so hard that it hurts. I walk outside our boarding house and ventured towards the bay, which by the way was just a few yards away from our home. There I go walking, walking along the seashore. I watch the moon and was fascinated by its beauty. It made me PAUSE for a moment and then I was recalling my past and the things that happen to me prior that night. I really had a hard time lastnight- thinking of what I had now become. I am afraid that each day, as the pages turns to yellow, I might loose the sense of being the person whom I wanted to be. In life, we tend to be alot more buisy and focused on the things that we consider "VALUABLE" (e.g Academes, work/job, family, others..). What do I really want in my life? Well, I just want to graduate and hopefully pursue my masters in the nearer future,settle for a good job and do a better living- this is what typical studz would think. Im the only child of the family and my father is gone already. I just wanted to make my mama proud with every little achievements that I make. I am HYPERACTIVE at school they say, too active that sometimes I tend to forget the little things that sorrounds me. Sometimes at school, or even with my friends, I talk alot. Taking and talking without noticing that sometimes I sounded like I was blunting to everyone who I am- sometimes I become so boastful. I really do feel for myself. I admit my mistake and Im willing to give room for improvements. I am still young and Im pretty much subjected for errors and lots of it. Humanly in nature. I don't want other people to look at me differently. I just wanted you to know that Im just very expressive. I do not intend to sound "AIRY" by laymens term. Im just opening my life to you all because I consider you as my family. I apologize for all my vices. I really hope to make it up to you. We are suppose to be family and that therefore we should be concern with one another. Im seeking for another chance, another try. Let me erase the person I was trying to make lately. Lets start all over again. Sorry for those whom I touched their ego. Let us all be united again everyone. Shall we?- that would be exatly the same words that I would like to tell everyone whom I feel that I had trespassed against with. Maybe by that time, at that very Instant, I can start a new leaf. I wanted to become a better person, so help me guys. ^_^ Help me in making myself whole again. Help me realize that life is so short and that we shouldn't waste a single moment in living it to the fullest. And hopefully when that time comes, only then can I understand more deeply why the MOON is most beautiful at night! -Guys I hope you like it. I had just make this short essay at the cafe "INFRONTO" at this very Instant. Sorry for the wrong grammars. ^_^ FRANKIE